One Guy Filled With Macho Crap!

Really, I adore this macho crap...he fascinates me...he is intrigue, infuriate and sometime excite me....

I’m not talking about a man who cook, washes the dishes and treat woman with the respect and consideration...Yes, perfect but stiff... !! of course, this kind of man my mother wants me to marry...do they exist these days...? I’m sure that anyone who ends up with them are sensible women with shinning and blissful future... I don’t know if I will be one of them....???

But...

Guy that makes me hot, flustered and plain weak in the knees isàthe annoying testosterone driven~~ which lots of people complain about...

“Why he doesn’t understand me..?” “Why I never know what he thinking about?” “Why I don’t understand why he doesn’t call when he said he will?”

Personally, I don’t see that as a particularly bad thing...Naturally, like other girl, I also wish for them instinctively understand me...But it is better not to be understandable, cause I don’t want to know what a horrific idea that they are thinking! I just don’t want to be able see right through them (transparent)...

There must be reasons...why we are ‘opposite sex’...which does not just stop at physical differences....

This man that I interested in...I trying hard to understand him, to dig deep into him...and I get caught by it, confused by it, captive by it...

I read lots of story of the women in love with this kind ‘bastard’... I fall in this fringe of category (maybe not wholeheartedly)...

Usually girls may feel a perfect date should be “Wow, I really felt that he understood me. It really seemed like he like me. We like the same songs, same movies, same...same...”ß (yawn! Mind you, he could be lying!)

For me, a riveting and fascinating date partner is a man who I don’t need necessarily have to understand. It’s a guy who attract me with his views, opinions but I need to dig deep to understand. Just directly expose his soul and mind barely to me is not something I needed in early part of friendship... A guy with strong mind, strong opinions, opens to listen but who hints at an underlying well of ideas, views, dreams beneath the masculine surface...Definitely! Make me keen for at least a second date and further interest...

I know this guy can’t appreciate soppy chick (girl act like baby)....

A man that don’t cry easily I guess, they don’t have a clue about why are woman wear mascara after eyeliner, and they don’t understand how a girl can shop for 8hours straight...

I don’t know...I’m not asking a man like - primitive chauvinistic caveman...A man who live thousand years ago in a cave before period of civilization who don’t care and concern about a woman needs...but the guy I like just leave the ‘women arena’ fairly untouched, maybe he is a bit sense-‘less’  man but I like it..

Could this kind of man turn from macho man to devoted, sensitive romantics...?

But aiyooo...the part of beauty of this special ‘man’s man’ is the main challenge...getting him to want me, love me, adore me...(I don’t know, it is impossible..)

I wish that macho casual attitude turn to be one pure devotion and commitment relationship... I’m tired to be a hypocrite...I like you...but I doubt, I wonder it is I earned it or not?

~~~at this moment that I write this diary, I already gave up on you...you are interesting terrible, awful guy...because you never pretend to be a perfect guy...cheers for me!! hoho~~~

240611..hoot..run devil..

Do it right, u are bad boy more curiosity than love,

U think all this time I have been blindly fooled by U?

U’re no fun and  U don’t have manner..

U’re D-E-V-I-L, U are~

U not been able to fix your atrocious habit, I know....

so  I am better run...

I can’t like U more, I just want to kick U out

I am better stay away~

I’ll pay U back on day I become more fabulous, don’t forget this..

You’re caught red handed, U provoked me

Devil...

U are a SUPER PLAYBOY

Raise your head, answer me!

How about being little nicer to me?

Your abrupt speech hurt so much

I really don’t like to becoming used to it

All of it is disappointing

You are been using trick and all dirty word, and I’m upset

It makes me become more incredible...

Maybe you forget the fact that,

In this world, half of them are men, does not matter if you out....

The moment I blink, u again check it out

That snort with a thorn stuck in it, all of it is weird

Bcoz of u, my heart wears armour

Now I’ll fight back

Your arrow is trouble, it’s aimed to me

You shoot, I am hoot

I just scarred by your words soaked in poison

I gave you a chance, End of excuses!

You’re definitely trouble

You still don’t come to your sense as gentleman

Your won’t meet a good girl with that attitude

Forever~

Don’t be mistaken, I am not cupid

If you try to float on water, I’ll make you sink

In the circle I made, you are square

You just keep ask questions that I didn’t even do not want to answer

But I still won’t shoot an arrow like you did

But sure I’ll fight back....

snsd

saya suka dia sgt ...how~~~~?

My Shining Star

I've fallen in love with you at least a hundred times, for a hundred different reasons.

Sometimes I fall in love with you when I watch you doing something you enjoy, in your music that you're so involved.

 Sometimes I fall in love with you when I watch you talk to other people.
Whether you're being interesting and funny or warm and caring and genuinely concerned,

You have a way of making people feel better with nothing more than words.Sometimes I fall in love with you just listen to your song,
And whenever I think about
the wonderful things that lie ahead about you.. 
I fall totally and completely in love with you all over again..

A feeling this strong can't be ignored.. that I'm so crazy about you....

I don't know what to do..

You shine like the stars in the moonlit sky
Shine on me so beautiful and so bright..such like beams of light yhat light up my dark and lonely night.. 

I love everything you say and do ..

You are special to me in so many different ways

As time turns the page, My love for you will never age.. 

i wonder why he dont smile & frendly on that night show??

28 MAY 2011

Youth national day: SJ-M shows

Gather around early than 7pm

8.00pm -8.30pm :

show by local singer like Farah Malaysia Idol, Nadia AF, Azlan the Typewriter, etc..

8.30pm-9.30pm:

doing nothing, standing in the crowds and almost to break my legs...just shot for SJ-M member to come out...

9.30pm++:

SJ-M come out singing the new song PERFECTION, there are only eunhyuk, sungmin, henry, zhou mi, ryewook, and of course my Prince kyuhyun... (siwon & donghae are absent)

Then song “blue tomorrow”...after that, henry solo, followed by zhou mi...ryewook & eunhyuk...and lastly KYUHYUN..

Henry look so energetic from the start towards the end..zhou mi, sungmin also energetic & keep smiling for us....eunhyuk try hardess to be close to the fan...

But there are no effort from kyuhyun...he not smile..just standing statically without smiling...his face look tired , hot, uncomfortable...

I felt so uset & frustrating..why?

26^th -28^th May 2011:

SJ-M @ Taiwan..



SJ-M at keting beach..



cho kyuhyun @keting show



also on the same venue @taiwan there is Emprio Armani photoshoot..they all work so hard with so pack schedule...

on 28th may, their fly from taiwan taoyon airport to putrajaya.....



their leave taiwan on sam eday the show at putrajaya..how amazing SJ-M.



he give a hand-pose to the fan...he look fine..



poor kyuhyun work too hard..it is his dream..it is his passion and love..i will never give up to his music as i <3 cho Kyuhyun so much!!

let love & cherish SJ more and more....

the one..

From head to toe you’re covered in extravagance

Hoo~ so dazzling

How could anyone dare to be with you?

A door opens and...

 ooh no~ on that good-looking face there’s not even so much as a smile

oh, My God!

My heart used to beat well is now going boommm!

The chocolate lips he’s biting can’t even touch that glass

Can’t erase the sight of you that I saw at that time at that moment

Twinkle twinkle little star

The guy who’s hot all over

I was attracted to his bad image

I see it, I see it...It is wrong of me to say?

I’ve realized it and it’s only him I look at

You say it again bad bad bad,

ha...i need a stop!

He’s so gorgeous, it’s a sin..!

Looking again, he has a perfect appearance from the back there’s nothing I can find fault with

Ohh~

There’s no merciful cold breeze

He’s a formidable gentleman

When he speak I’m knocked out

At that time I can’t erase you that I see in my eyes

I must be stupid

When someone else sees him they’ll know he’s not totally innocent

Why do i keep persisting stubbornly like this

Anyhow it seems I can’t have anyone else

He’s so handsome, it is a sin?

fine...i know how perfect are u? are u?

in fact...loser?yup3...sure u r..

We had met for 7 years....no one knew people would say good bye this easily...but we did~...memories of the arguments remained...

I don’t know how we expect to see each other...when we were so young because we couldn’t help our self from changing....they say it’s painful when to said good bye...but I couldn’t even feel that...I told myself calmly “that’s just how is it...”......I cried...

At my own...regretting and missing u...looking at myself with different heart...first as friend, next as love, it’s true what they say... it’s hard to stay as friend...

Still after for 3 years, we kept in touch once in while...even I fell in love again with another person...I always called u when I was sad...crying silently...telling u ‘ u need to meet a good person too’...telling u ‘ I really hate u’...when I didn’t really mean it...telling myself for nothing..Perhaps it just nothing..Maybe he still likes me...

I know...we were both really innocent...that we can’t have that kind of love...that it’ll only remain as sweet wishes...but once in while...I feel a cold feeling from u...I know very well there nothing I can do now...hearing his word.......I was speechless...and then I cried...is that our last word u have for me? But I love u were the only words I wanted to hear...

hu~.............

saya bukan budak baek...!

saya bukan budak baek...!

Why i like Q? The life is just sweet~~ (^__^)v

It’s like ice-cream...ought to enjoy it earlier than melting....yummy^2~... 



pls hear me~



my heart said " I’m doing well..I’m fine person..."

Look into the mirror

With the light glimmering around as i smile

That could be sad memories that make me cry

but i have a shoulder to lean on this world

I have sweet people in my heart

i just want to keep running for tomorrow for the future

To become a shining under the sun

Everything happened  has secret but it’s easy to find the answer

step with me..

I’m the one who’ll star and end it

Let there be light and become a shining star

The sun is welcoming me with rays of light

I just need one umbrella and that will be fine

There is no end

my bright future lies ahead ~

• ~Q...Q...Q~

bismilahirahmanirahim.....

suke nye....at last, i did it....!! yeaaa~~....

my page...

my life....

my colour..

my thought...

my luv.....

i'm a princess~ (haha)