One Guy Filled With Macho Crap!

Really, I adore this macho crap...he fascinates me...he is intrigue, infuriate and sometime excite me....

I’m not talking about a man who cook, washes the dishes and treat woman with the respect and consideration...Yes, perfect but stiff... !! of course, this kind of man my mother wants me to marry...do they exist these days...? I’m sure that anyone who ends up with them are sensible women with shinning and blissful future... I don’t know if I will be one of them....???

But...

Guy that makes me hot, flustered and plain weak in the knees isàthe annoying testosterone driven~~ which lots of people complain about...

“Why he doesn’t understand me..?” “Why I never know what he thinking about?” “Why I don’t understand why he doesn’t call when he said he will?”

Personally, I don’t see that as a particularly bad thing...Naturally, like other girl, I also wish for them instinctively understand me...But it is better not to be understandable, cause I don’t want to know what a horrific idea that they are thinking! I just don’t want to be able see right through them (transparent)...

There must be reasons...why we are ‘opposite sex’...which does not just stop at physical differences....

This man that I interested in...I trying hard to understand him, to dig deep into him...and I get caught by it, confused by it, captive by it...

I read lots of story of the women in love with this kind ‘bastard’... I fall in this fringe of category (maybe not wholeheartedly)...

Usually girls may feel a perfect date should be “Wow, I really felt that he understood me. It really seemed like he like me. We like the same songs, same movies, same...same...”ß (yawn! Mind you, he could be lying!)

For me, a riveting and fascinating date partner is a man who I don’t need necessarily have to understand. It’s a guy who attract me with his views, opinions but I need to dig deep to understand. Just directly expose his soul and mind barely to me is not something I needed in early part of friendship... A guy with strong mind, strong opinions, opens to listen but who hints at an underlying well of ideas, views, dreams beneath the masculine surface...Definitely! Make me keen for at least a second date and further interest...

I know this guy can’t appreciate soppy chick (girl act like baby)....

A man that don’t cry easily I guess, they don’t have a clue about why are woman wear mascara after eyeliner, and they don’t understand how a girl can shop for 8hours straight...

I don’t know...I’m not asking a man like - primitive chauvinistic caveman...A man who live thousand years ago in a cave before period of civilization who don’t care and concern about a woman needs...but the guy I like just leave the ‘women arena’ fairly untouched, maybe he is a bit sense-‘less’  man but I like it..

Could this kind of man turn from macho man to devoted, sensitive romantics...?

But aiyooo...the part of beauty of this special ‘man’s man’ is the main challenge...getting him to want me, love me, adore me...(I don’t know, it is impossible..)

I wish that macho casual attitude turn to be one pure devotion and commitment relationship... I’m tired to be a hypocrite...I like you...but I doubt, I wonder it is I earned it or not?

~~~at this moment that I write this diary, I already gave up on you...you are interesting terrible, awful guy...because you never pretend to be a perfect guy...cheers for me!! hoho~~~